Whoa!
Holy cow...how has it been 3 months since I got on here and posted? Sheesh, you'd think I'd been busy readying the house for sale, selecting options for the new one and chasing a kiddo around. Oh right, that IS what I've been doing. :)
1 week. 1 week until I'm no longer allowed to call the baby a baby anymore. Excuse me? A toddler is what I'm told a baby becomes on their first birthday. But I'm not sure how we're already at his first birthday. I'm not sure how I'm about to have a toddler, as sometimes I have to remind myself that I'm not looking towards a due date, but a birthday. I honestly cannot comprehend that the last year of my life has flown by in the blink of an eye.
I try to think back to this time last year and recall being giddy with anticipation for the birth of 'baby awesome'. I remember readying the room and thinking that that I had less than 2 months until our family added a member. I remember thinking that I was so in love with this kicking being inside of me - even though we hadn't met yet. And now, a year later I find myself looking towards a week from now, when my baby turns 1. It makes me stop and think, and of course, reflect on the past 52 weeks.
I honestly did not know, despite what everyone had said, that I would (that I could) LOVE someone this much. I didn't know how much closer it would bring me and my husband, and how when I see him interact with our son that I love him in a way I didn't know existed. I didn't know that a smile, a cry, a laugh could reach into my heart and lodge itself there forever. But it has. It happened in a second, that turned into a day, that somehow, turned into a year. A year filled with tears, laugher, love, sleepless nights, family firsts, big decisions, and tiny(huge) moments.
I'm going to enjoy this last week of having a baby, and then I'm going to enjoy having a toddler. But you better believe, that in my heart, he'll always be MY baby.
1 week. 1 week until I'm no longer allowed to call the baby a baby anymore. Excuse me? A toddler is what I'm told a baby becomes on their first birthday. But I'm not sure how we're already at his first birthday. I'm not sure how I'm about to have a toddler, as sometimes I have to remind myself that I'm not looking towards a due date, but a birthday. I honestly cannot comprehend that the last year of my life has flown by in the blink of an eye.
I try to think back to this time last year and recall being giddy with anticipation for the birth of 'baby awesome'. I remember readying the room and thinking that that I had less than 2 months until our family added a member. I remember thinking that I was so in love with this kicking being inside of me - even though we hadn't met yet. And now, a year later I find myself looking towards a week from now, when my baby turns 1. It makes me stop and think, and of course, reflect on the past 52 weeks.
I honestly did not know, despite what everyone had said, that I would (that I could) LOVE someone this much. I didn't know how much closer it would bring me and my husband, and how when I see him interact with our son that I love him in a way I didn't know existed. I didn't know that a smile, a cry, a laugh could reach into my heart and lodge itself there forever. But it has. It happened in a second, that turned into a day, that somehow, turned into a year. A year filled with tears, laugher, love, sleepless nights, family firsts, big decisions, and tiny(huge) moments.
I'm going to enjoy this last week of having a baby, and then I'm going to enjoy having a toddler. But you better believe, that in my heart, he'll always be MY baby.
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